Call me weird - but I try harder at something when I’ve got a group of folks (or even one person for that matter) who sat that I cannot do something. I find this annoying when this thing (whatever it may be) is something that I really want to do.
I’m a person who wants to experience all life has to pffer - what is the point of living, if you are not truly LIVING?! In my opinion, an attempt is everything, and we all should be making attempts. It doesn’t matter if you pass or fail, the point is that you tried.
On Friday I got the opportunity to make my attempt at something new. I was given the chance to go lawn mower racing. A lot of my friends either poked fun at me because of it or they looked at me like I was crazy for even considering it.
While going to the track, I will admit I was pretty nervous. Who wouldn’t be after all of the “you’re going to kill yourself,” comments?! I thought for sure falling or breaking a bone was going to be on my agenda that night.
The moment I sat on the mower I was going to be racing - every single fear I had of getting out there vanished. A smile covered my face and I knew that I just wanted to race. I didn’t care if it was going to be hard, I didn’t care if I turned my mower over, hell I didn’t even care if I got lapped 50 times. I wanted to make my attempt.
I was able to complete my time trials and my heat race without any issues. When I was asked if I was “sure” I wanted to get out there and race with the boys I couldn’t stop smiling. Oh heck yes - I was sure! I think Steve asked me at least twice if I was sure I wanted to go out there and do it. I’m pretty sure everyone thought I was going to seriously get hurt.
A few laps into the race I was coming off turn three and the left side of my mower was in the air and I thought for sure I was going in the mud. When I finally wrestled it back onto all four tires, I lost control and crashed into a fence. Crew cam running over and asked me if I was alright and if I wanted to stop racing. “Yes” I was alright and “heck no” I did not want to stop racing. I went there to try it, not to get scared and quit.
A couple or so more laps I lost control and had my mower sitting on top of tires that created a barrier on the inside of turn three and four. I felt like an idiot at this point. At least until the crew came over to help me get my mower off, they told me that they have all done it and to not feel like a fool. Tey asked me if I was ok and if I wanted to stop. “Yes” I was ok and “heck no” I did NOT want to stop! I was having way too much fun, I didn’t care if they had already lapped me a few times or that I lost control of my mower, I was new at this - I didn’t expect anything to go perfect.
So, Renegade Ren got to finish her 30 lap lawnmower race in one piece. The mower didn’t have a scratch even after my run in with the fence and tire barrier. I even want to get a mower of my very own to race it next year, but almost no one I’ve talked to about it thinks that its a very good idea.
The only reason they can give me as to why they don’t think it’s a good idea is “you could get hurt.” True. Actually very true. But I “could” die in a car accident driving to work tomorrow. Does that keep me from going? No.
We also “could” get attacked and eaten by zombies. But, I’m not too worried about all that either. :)